Natal Neptune Square Ascendant ~ Unsure of Ability
Neptune represents our subconscious mind. It is associated with dreams, inspiration, psychic receptivity and illusion. It is also associated with intuition and spiritual enlightenment. It is also a planet of mercy and compassion. In your chart, if Neptune is well aspected will indicate a great inner sensitivity, to manifest dreams and become highly creative. Negatively, it will indicate deception, deceit and addiction.
Neptune Square Ascendant
The Neptune Square your Natal Ascendant aspect inclines you to daydream about your potentials more than actively seeking to realize them. You are somewhat unsure of your own abilities and your ability to communicate effectively with others. Perhaps communication with your parents was unclear or confused in some way. Your ego and identity is somewhat fragmented and you may be confused about what you want to do in life. It may take you a while to find a job or work where you feel content. Your imagination is overactive, this can help your creative potential so the more you devote time to music, art and perhaps writing, the easier it will be for you to build your own self-worth and confidence.
You may be lazy and lack determination; it is important to work on your discipline so that your dreams become a reality and not just stay a fantasy. You may not potentially lack opportunities, but because of your inability to have clarity about your goals and objectives, you may move from one interest to another. You need to commit yourself to one area of focus, don't spread yourself too thin. It is good to work on your self-confidence and worth you tend to put yourself down or think you are not as good as other people. Don't let any negativity destroy your confidence in your abilities. You do have amazing level of creativity; you just need to create. Sometimes, reality doesn't meet your idea of perfection and ideals, this can also be true of your own creative talents. You need to shift your attitudes around perfection and realize that reality isn't perfect and cannot be.