Natal North Node Square Ascendant ~
North Node Square Ascendant
The Moon's Nodes are related to the subconscious, the domain of the Moon. Thus, the South Node represents subconscious motivations that stem from the past and to which there is an inner inclination to cling although they may no longer be relevant or appropriate to the individual's situation and prospects, while the North Node represents conscious motivations relevant to the present and future, characterized by a desire for the unfoldment of appropriate changes in personal psychology.
Some people within astrology consider squares to the lunar nodes as ‘skipped steps’ lessons you struggled to complete in a past life and are now forced to address in this life with heavier karmic debt. With nodal squares, there can be these frustrating or even painful repeated themes that are continuously brought up in your life, to nudge you to fulfill your karmic lessons in this life since you failed to do so in the past (South Node).
With North Node square the ascendant Your personality can often clash with social norms making you unpopular. When dealing with the public you can be difficult or even obstructive.
Your karmic path is not aligned with your identity and ego, which stops your personality to grow and evolve. You may feel like an outsider or that many people are against you. Your ego may be strong or rigid and this aspect is trying to cause problems in order for you to be more flexible and modify and change your behavior and identity. The best way to deal with this aspect is to be more open minded when it comes to alternative perspectives, opinions or viewpoints especially when it revolves around how you act with others.