Natal Sun Opposition Uranus ~ The Breaker of Taboos
The sun represents our vitality and our conscious ego, the self and its expression. It establishes our will to live and our creative force. It is associated with spontaneity and health. A well aspected Sun will describe a person who has heart, who cares for others both in general, and at the personal level. A poorly aspected Sun will describe a person who either has much more difficulty accessing this love and caring ability. In your chart the position of the sign represents your life purpose and style in which your make your mark in the world.
Sun Opposition Uranus
Both square and opposition aspects have a peculiar quality which is similar to an 'on-off switch'. Internal and external erratic behavior may be expected, which can lead to those dramatic and often drastic changes of behavior and lifestyle. Within your hidden inner life, you are likely to feel undercurrents of restless activity, which, while peaking and troughing, are an ever-present participant in your nature. This can lead to nervous tensions and irritability, and an edgy tone to your energy which is often psychically communicated or received by others and experienced as an intangible sense of unease. Your emotional and mental moods are erratic, unpredictable and temperamental, creating sudden confusing changes and relationships, or even contradicting statements that you have just made. sometimes you may fail to be aware of this lack of continuity that you exhibit. Individuality and independence will be emphasized, with insistence upon your own needs and freedom from all restrictions. This can manifest as a compulsion to display a rebellious antisocial attitude, mainly as a reactionary explosion of energy rather than any considered response which could also offer some viable alternative ways to follow. Your reactions are likely to be more negative in quality and content, and may need a conscious degree of self-moderation to avoid an instinctive 'knee-jerk' response. You may find that you obtain pleasure from seeing others react to your iconoclasm, as it can add some excitement to life, but it is unlikely to be inherently creative or positive action as you often fail to have anything of value which could replace whatever it is you are opposing. In many ways you are insecure, feeling lost and frustrated with both the world and yourself. Your inner energy flow is uneven; sometimes you are highly charged and have difficulties dealing with that; other times the energy seems to be switched off, and life goes flat and colorless. You probably lack a stable cohesive centre, missing the positivity of an adjusted planetary relationship to your Sun, and you may need to struggle towards establishing a firm, secure point of balance within your identity. You can be hypersensitive, but may tend to deny this aspect through feeling uncomfortable with your emotional nature and its ebb and flow, as this does not fit into that intellectualized self-image that you have developed. This can be quite delusory, but is also a prop for you to centre your identity around. These images can include considering yourself 'before your time', an unrecognized genius or artist, a cultural bohemian, a radical revolutionary, an important social adversary. Glamorous images emerge from that high opinion of yourself and those peculiar insights and ideas that you attempt to communicate to others. There are likely to be some nuggets of gold scattered around, but more often than not you fail to deliver, wisps of intentions dematerializing into the air. Your evaluations are often impractical, and due to diversions towards new glamorous ideas, or to an unfocused will, you often fail to develop fully any natural gifts. While you tend to insist that your will is paramount, you really need to learn effective forms of social compromise, realizing your misapprehension of being the all-important centre of the universe, which is symptomatic of an imbalanced Sun. Just learning to listen seriously to other points of view and perceptions on life can teach you much, in distinction to one of your behaviour patterns which sees such contact and communication as a form of competitive challenge, mentally pitting yourself as an adversarial opponent of another point of view. You may need to stop tilting against windmills. Your heroic quest should not be externally directed, but internalized in an attempt to achieve an inner transformation. This is not to imply that the windmills are not there - they probably are - but you need an effort to redirect and redistilling your nature and energies so that your solar centre becomes more powerful and integrative. A redefinition of rebellious spirit needs to be made by you, a re-channeling of your scattered energies. Learning forms of relaxation or meditative techniques could become very important to your well-being, and may help in this re-centering process of evoking the solar power. Highly strung nervous states are not beneficial to health. Relationships can also be fraught with problems, as your erratic hot and cold contributions are not always made in apt timing for your partner's behaviour patterns. You may need to be wary of making excessive emotional demands, especially as you may not be so balanced in your emotional nature, and you probably have a lack of understanding of that level. In many ways, it is likely to be an immature aspect of your nature, and may require conscious development and further exploration. Attempts to restrict the freedom of others should also be guarded against, as should undue attractions towards
This time will show you elements in your life you have not given enough consideration. Try to figure out what maybe making you restless and what you really want even if it isnt practical. All you need to do is determine what that is you can figure out later if it is attainable or not. If the energies are not allowed conscious expression they may come out through accident prone behavior.