Natal Neptune Square Midheaven ~ Self Doubt
Neptune represents our subconscious mind. It is associated with dreams, inspiration, psychic receptivity and illusion. It is also associated with intuition and spiritual enlightenment. It is also a planet of mercy and compassion. In your chart, if Neptune is well aspected will indicate a great inner sensitivity, to manifest dreams and become highly creative. Negatively, it will indicate deception, deceit and addiction.
Neptune Square Midheaven
This aspect can indicate extreme insecurity and self-doubt, unless your parents and other influential adults make a special effort to reinforce your self-confidence. When you meet a difficult person or an obstacle, your first tendency is to run away, because you feel that you cannot overcome it. This is probably not true, and you must learn what you really can do, instead of limiting yourself to the few tasks that you are not afraid to do. Sometimes you seem to be surrounded by energies that are very weakening, usually from people you are with who give off very negative energies such as resentment, hostility or anger. You don't attract such people to any unusual extent, but you suffer more than others from being around them. As much as possible, you should associate with positive and optimistic persons. This empathy has a positive side, however, in that you understand other people very well, knowing what is going on in their minds as well as what they say. But it will take you a while to learn how to interpret the signals you get from others. While you are young, you may frequently misinterpret people. You will feel a need to work for an ideal that is higher than yourself or for a person whom you can idealize and respect. This is fine, but you will probably be taken advantage of by people who are unworthy of your devotion, unless you work very hard to get past your idealizations and see who they really are. Then you can choose intelligently.
This transit of Neptune Square your Midheaven could cause a lot of confusion, doubt and fear particularly about your career and life security. You will probably start to question the fundamental purpose of your life and whether you are living your true purpose in your career or work situation. You have an underlying need to find more spiritual fulfillment in your career and may suddenly question the path you?ve been on, even if it?s been satisfying up to this point. If you are living purely for the sake of others or society and not putting your own needs and desires first you may feel the effects of the transit the most. You may start to be victimized or taken advantage of especially if this has been the case for you in the past. Avoid playing the victim if you have done this before, the results of doing this now could be quite disastrous because you will be avoiding taking on personal responsibility for your situation and actions. Try to keep the lines of communication clear with partners and authority figures and avoid intentionally misrepresenting yourself. Any deception will likely come out as this cycle comes to a close, and you may experience a painful but healthy dose of disillusionment about your career direction and place in the outside world.